Bad Bad Christmas

Swollow ur pride

I failed my bm. I was so disappointed with myself. The test was quite simple and I failed at the idiot proof event. What a day. I guess its totally my fault and only have myself to blame for it. Who cares if ure victim is a lousy victim...ure suppose to save all kinda ppl who are drowning isnt it? I should have just repeat the same method of towing my victim...instead of trying to adopt the examiner's method which just ended up screwing the extra chance he gave me. I'm such an idiot.
Can u imagine only I failed the pool events...y??? Cos its bloody idiot proof... At that moment, I admit that I'm one.
Can u imagine after the pool events I still have a CPR test which determines the overall failure for the bm test. I just sat there dejected and everybody trying to console me. Anyway, even if i passed CPR i still gonna retake my water event again... It was then when Magarette told me something... This is the time to swollow ur pride... Now i tink of it, men have to swollow their pride sometimes... and now its my time.

I've told myself I cannot afford to fail this test. My schedule is jam packed when sch term starts. Now I dunno what to do. I dunno when my next test date is...hopefully it dun clash with my swim teaching assessment. I have to go for practices on sat nites and it clashes with my attachments... Great...

Many ppl say that such tests are largely determined by ur examiner, be it driving test or boat test...etc. But if we're fully prepared, even if the most tekan examiner couldnt fail u. Its the same as school. Blame the papers for being too tough... but y can some ppl ace them but u couldnt? Does the paper has any prb? Or are u the problem?

I couldnt sleep this nite. The scenes flashing. I kept tinking about the idiotic me at that point of time. I promise i wouldnt let it happen again. For now I have to swollow my pride.